Aimless...

That's what happening now, aimless. Last year this month, I'd be working, yes, even on Sundays. Now...I just lost all motivation to work more than I really need. Do I need the money? Yes, of course. Then why didn't I go and get it? But then it would be buying my time with minuscule amount of payback. Will it be worth the time spent? No.

But, what better things I can do not spent in the company? I suppose I could write a book or otherwise think of a way to earn money. Open my own business or something. Furthering my education. You know, going to school is skulduggery, but fun at the same time. I think I'm just too lonely...

I saw Takamatsu-san last night at Orchard. Man, I missed her. I wanted to ask her to dinner there and then...but I didn't. Wonder what I was afraid of. Rejection? I should've being used to them by now. Success? Maybe...but laughable. She said she heard me talking on the streets, was I too loud? Does that turn her off? Hard to know...

Well...I'm going to class next Tuesday, so I hope I can do better than asking her about lessons.