Sick and Tired

I feel so sick. In fact, I am sick. And tired. Did I said I was tired? The pain which I suffered from last Friday still has yet to abet. So tired everyday at work, which I might add indistinguishable from my daily attitude at work: totally indifference. Now made much worse. And I'm sick at home too. No games to play...okay, no new game to play. New movies has et to come to cinemas near me. And worse of all...I has yet to ask her out! I am such a loser. :(

What is it with me and cowardice? I can't find someone to talk to, to relate too. All my friends are just that, friends that you do not open up to. And others are not close enough. This blog is he only thing that allowed me to express myself. A listening ear. A faithful companion...well, not exactly. But at least it 'listens' to my woes without making a comment. Is it really so hard to find my missing heart?