I'm going back to "Deliver Ice"

So sad...I'm going back because my grandmother just passed away. Sorry, but I don't think I'll be able to post until next week. See you next week.

Edit:
It's a conspiracy I tell you. A conspiracy! To make me come back to Malaysia. Is this destiny's way of telling me that no matter how far, no matter how long, no matter how bad, no matter how stupid and no matter how disgusting Malaysia has become, I, as a son of Malaysia, need be in Malaysia for the National Day? I remember for the past 27 years, every National Day has been spent in Malaysia, even the last three years I'm in Singapore. Hmmm...I guess Malaysia do need me, even if it has to resort to death to force me to come back.

I'm back

Hohoho, I'm back!

After the matchmaking session at hometown...I'm beat! It was long. It was hard. It was a messy affair! I mean...she doesn't look half bad, and she's not all that a conversationalist. Too bad she's not my type. Weird thing is, her sister seems to know me! Ack!!

Think as I like and think as i might, I cannot seems to find a job other than the one I'm doing now to suit my needs and expertise. One that I can do from home with minimal traveling and maximum satisfaction seems so out of my reach. Why am I looking for a new job? Looks like this industry, aka my company, are about to see me fail my certification interview; 4 hours of grilling by the meanest, toughest SOBs in the business...and without my certification, I can't do my work, and if I can't do my work, there is little point in the company retaining me on their payroll now is there? Sigh.....trouble!

On another note, I'm thinking of opening another blogging account, this time not for myself, but for my quasi-school; my Japanese language class. It's for us to pool our photos and outing stories so that others who missed them has a chance to bask in the fun and experience. I should stick to Blogger don't you think so?

Oh, this image is for all the countries I've been through. Just thought I'd share with you this thing. :)

All the things she said! All the things she said!

...running through my head, running through my head!
THIS! IS! NOT ENOUGH!!!

Well...Jane Doe and I went for a little dinner yesterday. An Italian dinner by the looks of it. We had spaghetti and pasta. The food was good, but then again, I wasn't even thinking about the food. She was simply mesmerizing! I, no, WE talked about many things but mainly about our common interest: anime! Hoah yeah! She like anime! And manga! And is a bigger otaku (or onnaku?) than me! Hahah! Damn, I feel so excited!

Anyway, I'm posting more photos from our dinner at Waraku.

A photo of one of the dishes we ordered...I don't know what is this and what it's made of...eggs I think.

My student from my university days...Yes....I did have a student you know!

So Close...

..they want to be, close to you...
doo doo doo doo doo duuuuu!

Ahh...The Carpenters. Their song was nice and easy listening. And hit so true to the mark. We, as in girl one, henceforth shall be called...Jane Doe(who by the way is not her real name, and a student, thus not the Japanese teacher I told you about), went to class together tonight. It was hard...really hard, as the language of instruction was in Japanese! And I thought I understand a little of spoken Japanese! Turns out, I'M NOT~!

Sigh...that's the bad news...the good news is, I managed to ask Jane Doe here to go out to dinner with me on Wednesday, before our class. Problem is...we have something in common; our language class. BUT, as some of you were apt to say, start from the common ground first before exploring further. Which under the circumstances I agree...with a caveat; it's too slow. It takes me weeks to finally succeed in asking her out...and going by current trend, it'll be months before I could even out her out to play...say, badminton. I know I know, slow and steady wins the race...でも、おそいですね！

Anyway, here's a photo from the dinner at Waraku last week.

Wow!

Hahaha, out of great title ideas. Don't know what to rant about tonight. Oh yeah, except for the fact I'm supposed to be working on my certification now, instead of logging on this blog. What to do when you're bored? This do! Hahaha, English as it is broken by me!

Last Friday, I went to Waraku Japanese restaurant with my friends from class. We took lot's of photos, but I didn't get any of their permission to post it here, so... Anyway, we had fun eating, drinking and chatting and laughing so hard we hardly noticed the time. But some things puzzles me...which i have explained in my previous rant.

Today, nothing has changed...we are still quite awkward with each other...but not overtly so. We still manage to laugh and talk together, and she still manage to turn down my invitation to have dinner...okay, tonight it wasn't about dinner, but about playing pool...

Yes! Pool! I played it for the...umm...let's see...second time now? Yeah, second time only. Damn...was I good! Or my opponent was weak? Hahaha, I couldn't keep track. But is was so fun, I want to go again next week...this time hopefully with the presence of her. Yeah, it would definitely be more fun.:)

I don't know why I'm sad...again...

It's just that I've been emailing her, and SMSing her, and even calling her and all, but she seems reluctant to answer any of my emails, reply any of my SMSs, and keep our phone conversations really short. Well, it's not like I'm expecting she answer everything, that would be illogical. But at least you expect some sort of answer within a day or two at most right? There's nothing! Why?!

And when we meet for dinner with friends just now, all 17 of us, we hardly ever spoke to each other, even though we're sitting next to each other. When taking photos together, I sense a distance between us, like a wall inexplicably erected without me knowing it. I don't like this wall. I hate this wall. I don't want any wall between us. Sad thing is, she told us she wanted to go to Japan to "catch" a Japanese husband! LOL! She may joke it, but people say that "A joke is the truth too close for comfort not to be laughed at."

Anyway...if there's some sort of attraction between us, it's because I'm been thinking too much again...as usual. But this is getting too awkward for both of us.

edit: And to think back, there was one girl whom I feel has great connection with me. We just clicked when we first met...you know. Like, u can talked for hours. LOL, I once talked with her for 3 hours on the phone, and that's after we celebrate Christmas Eve together in Orchard! Hahha, chatted until 4am i think...sighhh...those were the days.

Btw, this girl I'm talking about in this posting is not the Japanese teacher I so often talked about. It's my friend. Which just makes this all the more awkward. I mean, we are friends, and I don't want to see our friendship destroyed because of this...awkwardness.

Why?!

Why? Why is it that when my friend and I walks together, people invariably assumes he's the younger of us? And why does people exclaim loudly "Huh!?!?" when I told them my age? And why the heck does people say "But you're balding!!" when I say I'm only 2 years older than them? And why does people insist of saying to be confidant regardless of how you look when they obviously unabashedly prefer fawning over a stud who happens to be a well known womanizer?

I don't think you'll be getting what I'm trying to say even if I expound it into several pages long, so there...good night.

Busy as hell!

Jerry, so sorry...I am not able to log in until late this month, earliest is on 20th. Reason being...arghhh! Fuck it! I hate the rules and regulations! Had to do this and do that just to get one lousy certification! Right now, shouting amongst ourselves to settle our documentation to be submitted. Damn stressful man. You shouldn't do it when the boss is pressing your arse to hurry up, and finish it in less time than you really need.

There's another thing, this morning when I was in the cab heading to work, I had a thought. Unfortunately, due to the stressful nature of my day today, I've forgotten all about what it was about. But it has something to do with how the cabbies in Singapore mistreat their passengers...or something like that. Hmm, really awful right the way cab fares seems to rise and rise?

わるい！

Wow, the economy these days are bad. Considering the rise and rise of the stock market for the past several weeks, this slump in stock prices don't really come as a surprise. In fact, a few has been waiting anxiously for it. I am one of them. However, I made one investment mistake...I bought when the market is high. Sigh...now, I have got to let go or else I wouldn't have enough to make my dough.