Massacre

It was a massacre! Today's oral test was a massacre, not only in the spirit of the word, but in emotion as well. But overall, I did pretty good, and I am confidant of a passing grade.

However, this is not why I am feeling so down right now. Yep, it's about her again. Apparently, I do not rate very high in her opinion of me. All these while, it was I who thought she had a resemblance of feeling towards me; I am wrong. She has neither. She didn't run scared because of my advances last week. She was already running scared since the first time we went out. :-( This is truly depressing. And I disillusioned myself into thinking I might have a glimmer of hope with her.

Class is over. Exam done. And I don't have a way to contact her. Neither do my friends. I only got her email. But it's too impersonal, and she does not know my address. Today is a sad day; for more than one reason. The thirteenth will also be a sad day. Test scores will come out that day. Will I be as disappointed in my ability (or non-ability) in judging peoples' feelings? Time will tell...which just means, I'm running out of it.